Friday, May 11, 2012

不一样的我


突然有种很大的冲动,就是拼命找现代小说来读,不管是爱情友情还是亲情,只要是简简单单,普普通通些也无所谓。都已经二十出头,才来做人家十年前已开始的事情,十年前的思 想为何如此的荒废呢?

单单白纸黑字的魅力,远远胜过华丽的连续剧和压缩的电影,或许平淡的故事没太大的商业 化和娱乐性质。每次读完之后,总觉得这些看似超平凡的故事,却一点也不平凡。人与人之 间,擦出的火花竟如此美妙。

一些是真人真事,另一些故事是作者绞尽脑子编写的,两者有着各自的韵味。真人真事当然 精彩,因为曾经发生在他人生上,若身在其中,更是会有同感。虽然编出来的少了真实感, 但肯定少不了启发性。编故事之前,灵感大多数来自现实生活中,不多不少的在这些文字里 ,曾是作者或其他人的部分经验。

小说的精髓部分只会在故事发展中,过后的故事,也就是要结尾时,就会倾向一般读者想要 看到的结局,所以不会有太大的意外。当然,会有意外的完结会更好。 

作者用心良苦把自己的想象力化为文字,不论文笔好或坏,带出来的信息才是重点。有同感时,自然觉得自己就是故事的主角,若不是主角的全部,也会有那么一点点的相似,就会让自己深入一层去想想,同样的事会不会发生,会不会有同样的结局等等。当然,故事还是个故事,并不会完整的发生在你我现实身上。个人的人生都是独一无二,别人的也是。

除了小说之外,部落格也是个很好的小说,一个平凡的人写的平凡故事。

Wednesday, January 11, 2012

forward

exactly 365 days before this post
the day i fallen
today an 180 degree turn
i pull myself back
and moving forward again
a long long period back there
a steep steep way ahead . . .


introduction to japanese passed
structural analysis 1 a-


well, since only one subject counted ~
gpa 3.67


:)

Wednesday, December 28, 2011

80th

2 months apart  . . .
this is my 80th post
yes recently kinda lazy to update my blog
don't have the right mood to do it too
currently in holiday
after finishing short semester
the only thing stress about this semester would be repeating a failed subject
but now
i'm confidently cool about it and i aim to score high
the moment when finishing the last question of the final exam with 5 minutes spare
the calmness when doing the whole paper
the relief of knowing i did all of the questions
just so damn satisfied
although right after i knew some mistakes i made
but still i aim high
damn i will pass this paper as high as possible


another good news would be my course structure has changed
i suppose to do industrial training next may
instead i'll be doing next october
short semester of year 3 and 4 have filled in with subjects
the downside of this is we don't have any 3 months holiday
thanks to this i think i'm able to graduate the same period with my original coursemate
which i already having 3 subjects behind them . . .


i never regret taking civil engineering
i just never thought that it could be this hard
not anyone can cope
while myself just barely hanging right there

Friday, October 14, 2011

uphill

another semester finished
another exam done
and result out as usual
this time i check as fast as i could
it release on 2.05pm
i saw it on 2.50pm
usually i'd wait till late evening or at night only i check
probably i have high confidence in this sem's result

numerical methods and statistics a-
thermodynamics b-
cad & c++ c
fluid mechanics 2 b-
hydrology b
basics econs, acc and management b

i was aiming for an A for the numerical
a second A
but never mind, this is good enough too
gpa 2.9127
my highest so far
:)

Sunday, August 21, 2011

你走到哪
我会跟到哪
你一直走
我会一直追
永远贴着你

如果有一天你转头望不到我时
不是我不再追你了
只是我累了
那时希望你放慢一些
好让我能追到你

离你越远
心会越疼
只有在零距离时才安心
世界再多大也好
有你在就好

如果有一天你不再需要我追时
我会假装听不见
请原谅我不听话继续追着你
短时间内会很不习惯
请体谅我一会儿

当我确定你能独立后
我会试着放手
好让你能走得更好
与你的邂逅
永远不忘

Saturday, July 16, 2011

中国 | 2011

好久没写部落格了,这是关于我九年后再次去到中国的旅行。我去的是中国的中部,主要的两个城市是郑州(河南省首府)和西安(陕西省首府),其他城市有开封、新密、登封、洛阳和三门峡。重要的景点是开封府、少林寺、龙门石窟和兵马俑。

星期三晚出发到机场,延迟了大约半小时,启程到上海浦东国际机场,三小时内转机到郑州新郑国际机场。很可惜,上海的天空烟雾蛮重,所以没机会看清楚市容。原本呢出发的日期是定于周四,因为航班位子有限只好分两天出发。整团人四十六位,第一趟先走的有九个包括家人和我。所以在郑州,我们就个多住一晚。

第一个重量级的旅游景点-开封府,坐落在开封千年历史的府。保护与修复历史古迹,还是中国比大马好,开封府的大门、里面的建筑、一座四层楼-清心楼,都修复得很好。开封府的前面有一个包公湖,风景不错。

然后,在登封看一个所谓轰动全球的表演-禅宗少林音乐大典,舞台设计很复杂,背景竟是两座山,真的山,舞台就在中间。表演的功夫,当然也是真的,加上LED和闪光灯,形成高科技功夫表演了。同样的在登封参观了少林寺,也是个千年历史的景点。本来是个传授少林功夫的清静地,也变成了商业化,开放给旅客。心想能参观古迹是很难得的,但是要为了旅客需要开放,破坏一定难免的。讽刺的,商业化创造了商机,对当地居民却是好事。

在洛阳的龙门镇,有个叫龙门石窟的景点,有整万个在石岩雕刻的佛像和佛尊。曾被破坏被盗,也修复的很多,佛像最小的可以和拇指一样,最大的呢有差不多十七米高。龙门石窟遍布两座对岸的山岩,中间隔着一条河-伊河。

到达西安后,直接就参观兵马俑了。总共有三个被挖掘的地方,全都盖起屋顶,里头安了空调,保护至上。听了导游的历史解说,兵马俑对我而言,只是因为权威而建起的, 劳命伤财只为了自己。千年前的怨恨,却为现代西安带来很多工作机会,人们也从中受益。兵马俑挖掘已三十年,还没完成呢,还有很多埋藏着的都不会去碰了,政府决定全力保护。

其他的景点包括丽景门、西安长乐门、回民街、河南博物馆、郑州黄河风景、和二七广场。丽景门和回民街都是古街,很特别的店铺,也买很多小吃。在回民街多数做生意的是回教徒,有几条小巷很狭窄,古老,但美。第一次坐气垫船就是在郑州黄河啦,船长带我们到黄河河床然后下船,黄河近年水位超低,河床就是一片黄泥,泥是粉粉地,踏在河床的感觉,很怪。

食物方面呢,因为这里是中部,离开海岸很远,少吃到海鲜,鱼类都是黄河鱼。差不多每一餐都会有一个馒头东坡肉,常见的菜是菇类,菜肴不会太辣,不过不会很开胃。直到有一餐是澳门式的,吃起来超好吃,澳门菜很像大马华人的菜式。有一件有趣的事是中国的啤酒,不同的城市都有自己的品牌,而且每个省皆有产酒。酒精介于3.3-3.7%而已,当然是大马的好喝多了。

一路上都是坐旅游巴士,印象深刻的莫过于中国的发展吧,城市的环绕公路、高速公路和高速铁路。从谷歌地图看,郑州和西安都有三环公路,还又连霍高速公路,全长4280公里,我们的旅程只用了大约四百多公里。另外,幸运的让我看到了高铁列车,属于郑西高铁。虽然没有机会搭高铁,去西安时有看到高铁的超夸张铁路工程。远远看超壮观的,近看也没话说了。没亲眼见过高铁的我,终于看到了,希望大马也会有,十年可以吗?九年前在重庆和昆明的路上自行车多不胜数,而现在看到郑州和西安呢,自行车到处都是,不过电力发动的,只需充电,不需加油,没有引擎,没有废气。

回程时呢,就只有等一个字。中午十二点到达机场,享用午餐后就在等候厅等三点的飞机到上海浦东。当天早上有听说到上海刮三或四级的风,怎知真的发生航班大延迟,一等就等了六个半小时,天亮等到天黑,上海天气转晴时,终于离开了西安陕西国际机场。回到浦东机场时,天色当然也暗了,又错过了上海的风景,扫兴啊。。。没多久,半夜就转机起飞回吉隆坡。早上六点到达。

Sunday, May 29, 2011

A

yes, finally i obtained my first A . . . 4.00
only one subject . . . maths 2 . . . succeed
but all of us knew that the final paper, the midterm are all below standard difficulties
not too happy about it
dynamics passed with c
soil mechanics with a c+ . . . zzz
my english for engineering b
and pengajian malaysia passed . . .

deep breath . . .
haaaaaaaaaaaa
gpa 2.83
cgpa two point five seven

tomorrow will be the starting of year 2
long way ahead . . .

:)

Sunday, May 15, 2011

year one ended

and so . . . i 've been a full year in utar . . .i finished the first year and three more to go . . . year one third semester can be considered as the busiest among the whole year, from week 3 onwards till week 13 non-stop, rest a week and then face exam for 3 weeks, finally done but semester break only last for 2 weeks . . . i take 5 subjects with all have final, luckily all have room to breathe, meaning those exam days do not cramp together, still there's one subject that i have a feeling it will be gone, all others shouldn't have problems . . . infact i have high hopes that maths can get an A, my first one though if i really got one . . . the one that's gonna fail will be dynamics . . . its so hard and many are complaining, even the pro's doubt whether they can get A . . . so the weaklings like me obviously doomed . . . i register for muet for this semester as well, the exam is quite ok except for the speaking . . . i made a mistake, a very basic mistake, do not read the questions and instructions completely . . . oops . . . i wanna get band 4 . . . and put some faith in band 5 also . . . although very much impossible . . .

all exams finished, i should be enjoying from this moment on, but i don't feel relax at all, may be because i stressed for too long, or i might be not celebrating enough . . . or this is the side effect of growing old? grew old but still studying . . . study yet by hanging on a thread, anytime could fail, that's how i felt . . . all the time thinking to switch course . . . i don't regret in taking civil engineering, i learned a lot, but holding it till the end is a different story. so, marketing? quantity survey? or automotive? zzz

if you ever wanna venture into engineering world . . . think twice seriously . . . which university is not a main problem

i watch a movie, have a good lunch, a little shopping and that's all the entertainment, if i play dota, will i be able to release my stress? anyhow, i dont like dota . . . cod or l4d2 is much better . . . so what kind of entertainment will release stress? now i hope to go a trip, be it one day or a few days . . . wanna have a different experience . . . there's one study tour by utar, 3.4k exclude meal to tunghai university, taiwan for 14 days . . . expensive opportunity . . . ptptn can sponsor me somehow hehe . . . should i go?? hmmm

Wednesday, March 30, 2011

Final Fantasy XIII Soundtrack | Serah's Theme

make my wish come true
let darkness fade to light

show me there's still hope

show me it's not over

battles we can win

our struggle lies within

will we live to greet the dawn

love will not leave you

hate will not heal you

promise me one day that peace shall reign

Saturday, March 26, 2011

where's . . .

actually i don't really have mood for blogging
since already more than one month
i shall crap out something . . .
something that never right


i'm currently doing week 10
since week 2 every week has been a busy one
one after another although i am taking 5 subjects
and of course i'm not done busying


recently i seem to have found out
that i really aging
my face in the mirror
my body much more fragile than before
easily twisted =="
white hair grew more than before

i'm not fully 21
and not expecting people to take me as 20 also
means i'm really getting old
my parents also
every of my friend as well

life irreversible
memory irreplaceable
people not too friendly to you anymore
the world doesn't care how you feel also
earthquakes everywhere
wars everywhere
hatred all around
where's love?
where's mine?
where's yours?


independent is the sole answer to all this
which indirectly goes for selfishness
everyone protecting themselves will hurt others
my brain has been thinking, twisting, moving, storming, non-stop . . .
to find answers
for everything
silent is the side effect
why is it so hard to do it even though a simple stuff
some things always blocked the path
but there's no turning back
time never stops for us as usual
i'm seriously missing a thing


my world is getting smaller and smaller